Monday, August 1, 2005

Maybe This Goes Deeper And More Practical Than I Thought (re: Fake Badassery)

Perhaps there is another more profound reason as to why middle class white kids try to be badass in their choice of entertainment.

Perhaps it is not so simple as wanting "approval" from cool liberal hollywood people or cool alternative-indie crowds in the usual sense.  Maybe the real reason has more sinister origins.  (Not sinister on the part of the middle-class whites.  But in fact, what they are responding to is sinister.)

But that fear is still there.

And since they are not allowed to say that they still instinctively are genuinely suspicious of blacks, they still do not trust violent blacks, they would feel uncomfortable being the one white guy in a room fool of low-class, criminally-intent blacks -- they must turn to other sources of comfort.

How can they make themselves feel safe?  How can they reassure themselves that they could defend themselves from violent crime if the need arises?  What if they are just going about their day, and then, through no fault of their own, they are confronted by blacks that feel a collective sense of "vengeance" towards a random white person?  How can they assuage their fear, discomfort, the impending threat of possibly becoming a victim of a violent black?

They could maybe tell themselve3s that they are badass.  They could convince themselves that "they still got it."  They could try to reassure themselves that they are still capable of striking back and fighting back and standing up for themselves.

I think a lot of it is subconscious fear
=> ya know, like... they are scared, they are fearful that they might be overpowered, overtaken.  by a bully.  so in order to dispel any chance of that happening, they try to lodge a pre-emptive strike and fend off bullies at the pass.]]]]  They yearn for the feeling of being in control.

[[[they also yearn for the feeling of being involved in something big that would cause an ((explosion)), bombshell))

 I think what really going on is that you are getting back at society. You are exacting revenge by shocking and horrifying others.

Talking to you directly now.  Hopefully you all know who you are (although in all honesty, you lack the self-awarness to recognize yourself in this description.  Once again, people are not good at assessing themselves.)

You were shocked and sickened, you had your senses violated.  Your own sense of emotions, comfort level, decency, expectation of decency from others, personal space, expectation of psychological morality and people not being disgusting has been broken, demolished pulverized.

So now, you are getting back at the society that hurt you.  Remember my article years ago about complimenting a beautiful artwork or essay by writing something beautiful about it, therefore giving back?

This is a much more cynical, hopeless take.

These fake badass-wannabes tend to say... "ohhh well if you can't reason through your opinion, then it’s not a valid opinion and you have to discard it."  Notwithstanding the fact they evidently think they have a right to tell you how to think, how your cognition should function, what your opinion should be.  They seem to think they have a God-given right to be a thought police to you.

Notice that they insist on everyone else — their designated pre-judged pre-decided opponents — to play nice, behave, be polite, use critical thinking, et cetera.  Everything that they so conveniently never expect from themselves.  They very conveniently do not hold themselves to the same standards.

The funny thing is that they are, between the lines, very painfully acutely keenly aware of the fact that instinct, emotions, gut reactions are very strong driving forces for human beings.  The human reactions recoil and disgust are strong indicators of type of activity that is happening.  Notice that they are simultaneously constantly, consistently trying their damndest to shock and disgust people.

I spent a number of years trying to decode exactly why a person would consciously, voluntarily want to treat other people like this.  Why these sickos want to simply provoke a reaction such as this.  No other discernible purpose other than to simply shock, disgust, anger other human beings.

This is what I've come up with.  These are broken individuals.

Most likely there is a certain resentment residing within them that others are not as broken as they. "Why do I have to be miserable and corrupted while others get to live life on relatively neutral terms?"  So they spend their every waking moment with an obsession to tear down others to their level.

Notice that they are always trying their damndest to insist that their actions are motivated by ‘logic.’  That is a favorite go-to stock argument amongst these types, that their motivations are driven by logic and reasoning, rationality, levelheadedness, ad nauseum.

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